APPARENTLY I AM ANGRY

APPARENTLY I AM ANGRY

At a system that intentionally camouflages racism beneath a MULTICULTURAL discourse embedded in a neo-liberal mantle that blames the brown victim

for

Continuing to live in towns abandoned to the neo-liberal turns of economic necessity

Then blames the victim for WEARING THE WRONG COLOUR T-SHIRT

APPARENTLY I AM ANGRY

At the veneer that elevates the Left right and centre

Whilst abandoning those whose land form the foundation of our number 8 wire democracy

APPARENTLY I AM ANGRY

Because nice white folk take benign risks ensuring positionality

Whilst Māori risk life and limb daily in ways nice people will never comprehend

APPARENTLY I AM ANGRY

At us Pākehā who ask what is our commitment to the Treaty of Waitangi at job interviews

But cannot spell Te Tiriti o Waitangi without a Māori dictionary

MOSTLY I AM ANGRY

At playing the white game

Of trying to get ahead and in so doing become something more than I was
But ended up being exactly who I was trying to get away from

MOSTLY I AM ANGRY

At people who say 'get over it'

Yet have no idea what IT is I am meant to get over

I AM STILL ANGRY

With the women I was ready to share my life with but she went straight
For the beating I got and the fact that you never think you need to apologise because it was just me

BUT mostly I am angry

That racism killed your son
That I did not step up and be there for you
That all my shit got in the way of what was needed

I let you down

Apparently I am a lot fucking angrier than I realised I was...